So hey.

*awkward cough*

It's uh...been a long time. Good long time.
Because I'm lazy is all.
Art and I have this weird relationship going on....

But anyway. I think I'll start submitting more stuff now. Hopefully caring less about being judged by it. Honestly, it seems like deviantArt supports the idea that art should be judged by how popular it is. Disturbing. Of course, this is bound to happen to an extent with so many people, but, I think they could focus more on the small community aspect of art which is so missed online. But is it here some? I do see a light coming from under the closed door, it isn't completely dark. And how am I any better than them? I judge everything altogether too much. What's the point? We're all human, we all have hearts which desperately pump blood through our veins to keep us alive. And we all die. And all our efforts on Earth seem to fade away. Who cares if one person has had an advantaged situation over another? Art should be appreciated equally, without so much regard to popularity. Art should be so much more than a beauty contest.

Because honestly, the most beauty isn't found in the most popular things.

Friends, how have you been? If you take the time to read this, I thank you sincerely, please talk to me some, I'm gonna try and talk to all of you as well...

It's been too long.

Walking in the desert.
My own fault.
Maybe this oasis is in fact a jungle.
Maybe I'm hallucinating.
Either way, the fun begins now.

Without Christ, there is only emptiness disguised as something filling. Art without worship is like a poisonous fruit: biting in may be delicious at first, but later it will all be vomited back. Sometimes, the one who eats it may be lucky, and they won’t get sick. Even then, the taste will fade away, and is meaningless. It all just results in becoming hollow and hungry; lost. Then more poisonous fruit is swallowed and the cycle just goes around and around until death or rebirth. What a sad fate it is to try and cure hunger with something that only leads to starvation.

Technicolor yawns may be pretty, but they still leave us hollow.

Is it really worth the emptiness, to make something pretty?

I would say it's more important to love.

But what is love? Where does it come from? Why?
Without a God, we can only be biological expressions of cause and effect, a never-ending chain of bondage. Love wouldn't be love then. Morality wouldn't be morality.

I want to love all of you, and I try. Because we all need it. What else do we have worth anything?

And how can I ever love, how can I ever do something good, without my Lord. Even this, here, is hopefully passed through me, not by me.

Crush me and I'd be okay.

But not like this. Not now.

Go ahead.

It needs to happen anyway, doesn't it?

Just take care of the others.

They need it.

Fear and blood and trials and pits of the deepest kind.

That's what it is.

I keep mine.

Hear my prayer.

Wow, i updated my journal on this new account -_- I AM A GENIUS. haha. no.
But, I guess I'd better post another in its place, so as to not look like a complete idiot.

I am in love.

I am a psychologist.

I am an experimenter.

I am an artist.

I am a Christian.

I am a sickly monster.

But mostly, I'm just me.
Lately, it seems to be a hard thing to accomplish, being myself. Laziness wins over what should be done. It's time to change things...and start doing art...and start loving people....

Well.
It's been a while now.
Since I've gotten on DeviantArt....
And yet, I am more an artist than ever before.
But what I do isn't for publicity, really.
Art, for the sake of art.
For the sake of pointing out the little monsters and parasites that infect the world, no one seems to notice.

I just give it away.

For those of you that choose to read this, I am going to abandon this account, because I have changed. Drastically.
Candles are everywhere, my friends. That doesn't mean you should follow them. But certainly, it's better than the dark....but it is HIGH TIME that i start spreading the fire. I may like the dark, but the longer we stay in it, the closer it creeps to our hearts. Just remember that.

My new name will be AspirantInfection.

If you wish to follow me, go ahead and add that account.
I'm sorry if I haven't talked to you on this one...I haven't been using it.
Talk to me on the other one, and I will.